gradeacommie

My thoughts have been heavy this break.
I keep them to myself although I would like to talk to someone.
I want to talk to Jonathan but I feel like I would get no help.
Maybe not that i wouldn't get help from him, but that I can't help myself.
I just want to be happy again like I was before everything started crashing around me.
I hate the person that I am now.
I'm easily aggravated.
I'm angry.
I'm sad.
I can control my emotions better now, but negative thoughts fill my head
more often than positive ones.
The other day I wanted to talk to Nikki and Jonathan both about this.
They both know that I'm not as happy as I once was.
I feel frightened and antsy and I can't relieve my stress easily.
I just want happiness like everyone else.
Why can't I have it?